I’m on the verge of an emotional breakdown… or just simply disappearing and finding a new world for myself. My workaholic phase brought me to this threshold but it was people that were supposed to be there that pushed me over the limit.

I can’t always get what I want… so if I quit wanting and hoping,  I leave behind disappointment… it’s the perfect remedy to the imperfections of my life.

There’s no one to blame for this but me. I deal better with things alone and need a reminder of that every single time. I love meeting new people, having good friends and spending time with people who matter to me but then I give them the power to hurt me and they do… it’s not a fault in them because that’s the way the world works. The problem is that I let them in… and then they fail and I’m disappointed and hurt… It’s a defeat, and that’s the one thing I don’t handle well.

So… I take this time to step back and disappear slowly into my own world. It just makes things simpler…

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